God is not a narcissist

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God is not a narcissist


1. His wrath is not unpredictable: he gives clear instructions, is patient, discipline is proportionate to the action
2. His love is not needy: he gives himself freely in love, which may (or may not) result in gratitude, and love freely given from his children
3. He does not try to control outcomes: but created a garden with a “way out.” Creates options, to enable adult decision making, and maturity

God is God (a narcissist can’t put themselves in this position)

1. Believing they are right all the time (even God changed his mind on some things)
2. Believe that they are in the right all the time (only God has the perfect moral authority, and perspective to see every issue rightly)
3. Require lifelong obedience (children obey while children: but all must obey God for life)
4. Believing that their rage/wrath is justified (God’s wrath is against sin, but especially against the oppression of the weak by the strong, and religious hypocrisy. But an angry narcissistic parent often unloads all their anger on a surprised, weak, and undeserving child. Childish immaturity, being noisy, or even being happy or too successful may all be punishable offenders for a narcissist. God, on the other hand, is patient, kind and understanding to us in our weaknesses and takes account of a lack of knowledge. God’s wrath is holy. God is the judge, and the centre of morality for the universe. He can become righteously indignant, in a way that a parent cannot, and should not except perhaps in very rare cases. 
5. Believing that they have a right to control
6. Believing that all of the possessions of the child actually belong to them, even as adults

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